Poem: Musings

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photo courtesy of Benito LeGrande
photo courtesy of Benito LeGrande

Musings

What is this?
Is it love? Is it hope? Is it misplaced trust?
Quench the emotions;
The rollercoaster is too much.
Where’s the switch that turns them off?
Fear. The great unknown lies before me.
Is this the One or must I start again?
Why am I torn?
Why do my emotions feel like a curse?
Wondering. Waiting for direction.
Looking for a “No,” but hoping for a “Yes.”
Pain. Heart-wrenching.
What have I done?
Fogged over, but acutely aware.
Should I give in or is it wrong?
Heart strings strung all around.
What to do?
Trust God. Draw into Him
And He will envelope you with His love.

Ah, the raging hormones of a teenager. I always found a guy to like, though I didn’t begin dating until I was about twenty. I avoided a lot of mistakes that way, but found the time to make some later on anyway. I believe this was written at a time when I was planning to go to the Honor Academy – a leadership training school. We weren’t allowed to date, but I had a boyfriend at the time, which meant I needed to break up with him in order to go. It was a hard thing to do, but I believe it was for the best.

What kinds of hard decisions have you made in life? What relationships did you struggle to let go of? Leave a comment below to join the discussion.

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